It is so interesting how I stop accepting myself. I end up telling myself little lies about my ideas, my thoughts, my value, and my ambition. I start filling myself with doubt. I ignore the truth my friends have given me. The encouragement my friends have poured out on me and start focusing on the little things that are wrong with me.
After a while I start to look in the mirror and see an intelligence quotient score, which is too low
I see a pant size, which is too big.
I see a shirt fitting too tightly.
A hairstyle, not groomed correctly.
A heart, is not happy enough.
A husband, not loving enough.
A friend, not attentive enough to the people who matter to him.
Relative who does not ever call.
And after a while, I begin to think I am barely worth the clothes I am wearing.
No one ever told me I have so little value. I have convinced myself of this idea. As a matter of fact, the people who might be the very people who would jokingly say these things to me are not saying these things. Even their jokes are positive. Their love is ever present. I am the only one telling myself these lies.
I am the only one trying to define myself of something that is totally and completely insufficient to measure my self worth.
I am the only roadblock standing between me and progress. I am feeding myself these lies.
I am the only one who can plug the hole of these lies pouring into my life.
Where are you lying to yourself? What lies are you telling yourself? When are you going to start telling yourself the truth?