On Changing The World

The Relevant Podcast was one of the staple podcasts I originally listened to when I started listening to more podcasts. I do not listen to them much anymore, but I am still subscribed to them to see who they have on as a guest, what they’re talking about, and generally keep up to date on whether or not I want to listen to the current episode.

On one of their more recent episodes, they interviewed Seth Godin and talked to him about several things. The one thing that stuck out to me most was his discussion about how we can make the world a better place. He was not focused on everyone starting their own movement or everyone trying to conquer and control the world. He was focused on the simplest of things. He was focused on trying to positively affect a few people around you. Every day, have a positive influence on four or five people each day. 

How simple. 

I do not need to start a movement or create my own non-profit or travel to the deepest darkest parts of North Korea to change the world. I need to have a positive influence on a handful of people every day. Some days might be the same people over and over again. Other days might be a completely new group of people.

If I tried to improve or positively affect four or five people a day, how much better would the world be?

What is a reasonable number of people you can positively affect each day? How can you positively influence people each day?




Here I am. 28.5 years later and total confusion to show for it. 

I have an amazing wife whom I love and supports me better than I could imagine. An awesome community who is doing more for me than I would ever ask.

Here I am.

I couldn't be in a better place for being in such a terrible place.

I could not be in a better place, for being in such a terrible place. (Important statements will be repeated. It is artistic...I promise.)

Starting 1 Dec. 2014, I am on sabbatical. Those words almost hurt to type. My fingers ache with the reality of it all. My heart weighs with the prospect of digging through the past 7 years much less all of my life till now.

Yet, here I am. 

For the next few days I’ll be with family, celebrating, The Great Turkey Tradition. Then, It’ll be 31 days of reflection. 

I would rather spend 31 days eating Magnum Bars, watching Breaking Bad & Walking Dead, and Playing Destiny on the PS4. (But that seems rather counterproductive.)

If you’re reading this wondering, “What is going on with JT?” 

The answer is, “It is too much to explain right now, but the TL;DR version of it all is, I’m sad, all the time. And in the few moments I’m not sad, I don’t have to do much more than look over my shoulder a short ways to be back on the verge of tears.” The only other things that I regularly feel are anger and frustration. These three things are destroying me and making me an awful person to be around. As if the puns weren't enough. 

There are times my anger and frustrations are valid; though, I never actually deal with them in a valid way. And the right thing done the wrong way, is still the wrong thing. 

My goal is to post here every day. I have an outline of around 85 blog post ideas, and after that, I’ll see what the new year holds. I am guessing after 1 January 2015, I’ll post weekly, maybe 2–3 times a week. We will only know when we get there. Minimum, I would like to be posting once a week.

What you can expect is me pouring my guts out. I’ll be going to counseling, I have my first appt. on 3Dec and I expect to have many more after that. I’ll be talking bout my counseling as openly as possible. I’ll be reflecting on who I am, who I would like to be, and why I tick like I do.

So, here we go. I’ll tweet out a link to my most recent post about once a week, but truly, I love my friends enough to not tweet my posts daily. That would be a little much. 

The other major question I want to answer is, “Why are you doing this?”

First, to process my thoughts, feelings, and emotions.

Second, I’m not the only person in the world who has the issues I have. I would rather share where I’m and my journey from here so that other people have a place to come look, talk, and wrestle, than write it all in a journal I’ll never read again. 

Finally, in the event I miss a day, do not be surprised. The point of this time is rest. I am hoping to get far enough ahead I don’t miss any days. But we’ll see what happens. If you have any requests of me or want to hear about a specific topic, please use the contact form and I’ll be glad to dialogue with you about what you’re looking for and whether or not I’ll address the topic. 

Otherwise, thank you for joining me on this journey. It's going to be interesting, I promise. 

For the first time,